I really am glad that I have friends. I do wonder how I have friends. I’m only a simple young adult going into the new world. It’s so much different and scary. It’s the unknown for those who graduated from high school. A lifestyle quite different. Sure, some peers have had jobs and other responsibilities. Only you’re on your own and soon you’ll have bigger responsibilities.
I tend to feel it when I’m wandering into an unknown group of people. I kind of hate making friends. Which is why I’m so lucky I met the people I know today. I feel quite the nerve rack. I don’t want to look stupid. To me it’s no different when meeting you’re girlfriends dad giving the murderous look on you. I always think to myself, I need to give a good impression. I don’t want people to hate me. Although, my personality will make that happen.
There seems to be a link between anxiety and depression. Which makes total sense. That’s sucks though, it can really interfere with your daily life. I myself never had an anxiety attack. Well, that’s quite the lie. I broke down hard. Then, to feeling sad. The feeling is horrible. However, if you were to ever to witness me going through that attack. You’ll just think man this guy is high out of his mind starring to the ends of space. While in fact, I’m just suffering.
This feeling chains me down from doing anything. Socially, I can never start a conversation with anyone even with let’s say I’m with friends and then there’s more people who I don’t recognize at all. Then, I start to panic a little or feel some stress. Genuinely don't want to look like an idiot. What’s crazy is that anxiety affects so many young adults. The people in this world make it much more harder for them. The people I love around me calms me down. I feel like there is no one else but us. A free world, for us to enjoy. To laugh, to cry, scream and yell. Oh boy it’s best feeling. Some people don’t have that. Quite sad. So even though, I’m going through thousands of ways of saying my first words of the day. I try to be friendly to others. That void of heavy pressure is not a good feeling you know.
